Date: 07/13/2000
From: Tigs

When I see people bash something I enjoy, I want to curl up and hide under my desk instead of taking a stand and making a difference. My gut reaction, to counter that, is to get mad or freak out a little bit. This latest "crisis" echoed a recent internal journey and I decided to make a stand with a post that perhaps wasn't very nice. It recieved two pity replies. I subsequently questioned my value as a member of this community. Then I did something to support what I saw being torn apart. So, I replied to every post which got very time consuming. I also tried to make light of things by ressurecting my old handle. While doing this I questioned its value and my online worth (the whole bleeding thing). Finally, my energy left; I needed to breathe and figure out a response or stand I could live with. I don't want to leave. That would put me with the followers. However, I can't invest much in this because while it helps siphon some extra energy it also sucks more than I care to give, much like a greedy child with pixie sticks. All in all, I am tired ofreaking out, supporting everything and losing my energy while feeling like it doesn't matter.

Tigs

hugs Tigs

Date: 07/13/2000
From: KittenBrat

Thank you for replying to every post. I remember someone (SL4ever?) used to do that too. It means a lot to people, I know.

Hugs Tigs.

KittenBrat

P.S. Wind

Tigs, honey....

Date: 07/13/2000
From: SouthernSlider

You've just got to mellow out. I used to get really upset at some of the things going on here. My once-beloved board was going to hell in a hand basket and I was being left behind. I felt very out of place here for a while. But this is a place to relax and get away from the daily grind. Some of the people that used to make my blood boil, now just make me laugh. I look at some of their replies and just shake my head, and say, "poor ______". Other times I just don't even open their posts. I pick and choose and put this whole place in perspective. I come here every day when I'm not out of town. I love it, I hate, I can't do without it. Go with the flow, honey. The people here that are important to me, I stay for them. The people I have no connection to are just ashes in the wind, floating by in my life, some enriching, some enraging, but all just a tiny part of my life. Enjoy what makes you happy, slide by what makes you mad. Don't let the negative ruin things for you. Love ya, girl, and all you do for this place.

SS

Tigs!!!

Date: 07/13/2000
From: Stoker_chick

I'm so sorry, I haven't had any time whatsoever yet to reply as thoroughly as I'd like to to your e-mail. I just don't want to do it wrong. I feel more selfish than yourself, as I rarely even reply or post at all. And I can attempt to relate, in that it was barely noticed when I was missing for almost an entire month (the last week of April through most of May), as you now know the reason.

You are loved and respected by many on this bboard, I am sure of that. I can only assume that people's own lives always seem to obstruct their vision of other people's feelings and pain (I think I might be getting redundant, though).

Then again, I am not psychologist, only a hyper-analyst. I already got in sh!t this week for trying to help a bipolar boy feel better during a tantrom by cheering him up with simple, everyday humor (borderlining on discharge). Thanks, though, for responding as you were able to. Your presence is valued, I just don't think that everyone knows how to show it, or even feels it necessary. I think there's some tacit agreement that if you're used in other's fan-fic or responses, then you are definitely respected. You have been noticed, and appreciated, I hope.

Peace always.

Stochi.

Tigs, this burden is not yours to bear.

Date: 07/13/2000
From: DieselMickeyDolenz

Your posts here are appreciated, if not always acknowledged. You have a way with words that not many enjoy, and some do not understand. Whatever internal journey you have had, I hope you reached the destination you desired. The journey this board takes, however, can not be decided by a single poster. Do not take this burden upon yourself when there are so many others willing to share it.

Diesel

It does matter!

Date: 07/14/2000
From: DoctorQuinn

You are an important part of this community. Everyone is. I've come to realize that.
The energy you put into this impresses me. You obviously care about this community. You're practically a legend! You don't owe this board, I think we owe you. You've put much more time into this than I have and it puts me to shame.
You are entitled to an awful lot of respect. If I haven't made that clear, I apologize.
I know the people whose post may not have been replied to if it wasn't for you are thankful. It shows them that someone cares. Although they may not voice their thanks.

The good doctor

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